thank you for your book navel gazing.
i experienced a huge emotional response to it, which was not unsurprising. i had read the blurbs in the papers and bought it because the issues resonated with me.
and on finishing the book i am left tearful, sensitive and wondering.
Unlike anne, i was not obese (at my heaviest i was 11.5 stones) nor did i have a GB. but everything else rings true. i never dated…i was also an “unfuckable”…i scowl at strangers if they look at me because i “know”they are criticizing my appearance….i cannot accept compliments and sometimes even physical caresses from the man i date.
it makes me wonder that the psychological processes involved in this self hatred are separate to the weight issues…that even if anne had not been overweight, she may have had such self loathing anyway.
i thank her for her candid book, i am sharing it with those close to me so they can begin to understand the processes in my head and why i hate getting dressed so much, why i can be ok one minute but then irrationally full of rage if i so much as glimpse my reflection in the mirror. my body has let me down all my life, (in my opinion), yet it is strong and healthy for the most part. i hate it with a passion. i too grab lumps of flesh and dream of cutting it off and sewing myself up in a neater, tighter way.
thank you anne for putting a voice to the body hatred that many of us share, whatever our size. x
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment!
As is often the case with reader reactions, I’m torn between being pleased that you responded so viscerally to the book (because it means I did my job as a writer and I’m not alone in my body image issues) and feeling terrible that you relate (because of course I’d rather you felt happy with yourself). But I hope the book at least made you feel a bit better in knowing that you’re not alone.
I hope you’ll keep trying to fight your body hatred – awareness of the problem is usually a good first step, and it also helps to have a supportive partner and family. I wish you all the best in your own personal journey.
I don’t have any way of getting in touch with you so I hope this works. Are you in Italy by now? Save some Italian hunks for me, sweetie. Will you write a reference for me for a part-time lecturing job in creative writing I’m applying for? I’d be so grateful. Please can you send me coordinates so I can put it on the form. Think I’ll need some sort of postal address too. I’d love to catch up. Please let me know asap. Nxxxxx
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